Aloof

You're really confident, speak your mind (without being rude....sometimes) and participate in conversations, even if you don't know the person.

Then you suddenly feel like distancing yourself from everyone. You just want to shut out every single person.

You just want to focus on you. You've realized all the time you spent on others, doing favours for them cause you felt bad saying no, taking time away from your own work to explain something to that kid in the back who was confused and basically just doing a whole bunch of things without ever asking for anything in return, you just did them because you wanted to help.

But you know what happened when you needed help? That day you forgot your pencil, and needed to borrow one? When you actually asked for help and got told to wait cause they were "busy"?

No one had a pencil to lend. Time to waste on you. Nothing.

So, now you're left choosing between the good person you are, and the person you have to work hard to become.

I say forget them all. It's your turn. And it's about damn time. Now they'll realize what they had.

Too little too late.

You've got to admit it's pretty exciting. You finally can say 'no' and not feel bad. Tell them to wait, cause you're busy now. It's also a little scary, you'll feel like you have no one to talk to, as if you've let people down. But trust me, they'd do the same thing in your position, and they'd be much worse. There's nothing wrong with wanting the best for yourself. It's not selfish, it's smart. There's a difference, and I'm really glad that we've finally been able to choose which one we'd like to be. 

Here's to a kick-butt year, and many many more to come.