Aloof

You're really confident, speak your mind (without being rude....sometimes) and participate in conversations, even if you don't know the person.

Then you suddenly feel like distancing yourself from everyone. You just want to shut out every single person.

You just want to focus on you. You've realized all the time you spent on others, doing favours for them cause you felt bad saying no, taking time away from your own work to explain something to that kid in the back who was confused and basically just doing a whole bunch of things without ever asking for anything in return, you just did them because you wanted to help.

But you know what happened when you needed help? That day you forgot your pencil, and needed to borrow one? When you actually asked for help and got told to wait cause they were "busy"?

No one had a pencil to lend. Time to waste on you. Nothing.

So, now you're left choosing between the good person you are, and the person you have to work hard to become.

I say forget them all. It's your turn. And it's about damn time. Now they'll realize what they had.

Too little too late.

You've got to admit it's pretty exciting. You finally can say 'no' and not feel bad. Tell them to wait, cause you're busy now. It's also a little scary, you'll feel like you have no one to talk to, as if you've let people down. But trust me, they'd do the same thing in your position, and they'd be much worse. There's nothing wrong with wanting the best for yourself. It's not selfish, it's smart. There's a difference, and I'm really glad that we've finally been able to choose which one we'd like to be. 

Here's to a kick-butt year, and many many more to come. 

The Return

So, things were pretty weird, but that always happens when things change.

But now something different is going to happen.

New beginnings, new conversations, new people, new friends (because let's be honest, some of the other ones just didn't cut it) and best of all new 'first times'.

So you absolutely love the movie '500 Days of Summer' (which btw, if you haven't seen yet --you should), or the first conversation you had with your crush.

You've probably watched 500 Days of Summer more than 50 times, and talked to your crush a couple dozen times as well. But remember the very first time you got to do those things?

That rush of excitement you got from asking your crush questions and getting to know them, and not knowing what Joseph Gordon Levitt was going to do next in the movie?

You can never re-do that first time, but you can always have new first times.

That's why it's really nice when you meet a person you haven't seen in awhile, there's so much to talk about and learn. And when you meet completely new people, and possibly have the chance to re-invent yourself, you could be the shy, crazy, spontaneous or outgoing version of yourself. It's all up to you!

It's a fresh new start, and I'm pretty excited about it (and also a little nervous). But what's a new experience without a little taste of the unknown? 

Take Care

You never really thought of what it would be like without the person. Mostly because you didn't feel the need to think about them ever leaving, it was assumed they'd pretty much always be there.

But then you did have to think about it.

Sure, you were given notice a few months before. That would obviously be enough to mentally and emotionally prepare yourself for it.

You were wrong. 

There's no amount of time that could've prepared you. There are no words that could have been said to make it all better. There is no limit to the amount of hours you talk to the person that will make it any easier.

It's kind of like losing a piece of your life. A part that was pretty darn awesome.

And without that part of your life, you feel incredibly alone.

You wish them the best in everything they do, everything they will encounter in the future, a future without you.

Maybe it's a good thing, it's a test of your friendship. It'll just become stronger.

Having no idea how to say those last good-byes, good nights or see you soon's you just cry. That pretty much sums up everything you're feeling.

And then the very last thing that's said, 'take care!' . And you break down again.

You'll make it through it, don't worry.
It's just another adventure in the story. And the characters in this story will inevitably have to meet again.

Boxes

There was a place for everything, and everything was in its place.

When you needed something from the kitchen, you knew exactly where it was (or you trashed the place looking for that favourite mug you use for your tea...you know, that clear glass one).

When you wanted to get away from the awful homework, you could go into your family room, relax on your lovely black leather sofas and play Wii.

When you needed to escape from those family-friends who had weird kids, you could escape to the safety of your room and read those books you love so much ( Harry Potter and such).

But then the news came. It didn't exactly take you by surprise, because you had become so used to it. But it still hurt a little.

All those times looking for that mug, playing Wii with friends (and losing .... sometimes ;) and hiding from
un-welcome guests are just memories, of a now empty house.

Instead of your mug's home, its become the hallow domain of the dish-washer.

Instead of your living room, it's a 'lovely area to spend time with friends and family' (as the awful person who made money off it said....I'm telling you, they could've easily been 'taken care' of).

The Harry Potter books, photos, yearbooks, Wii console, tv and couches have all disappeared.

It's no longer my home, it's simply another house on the street.

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You have no idea how much you'll be missed. From people you've only met once to people you talk to everyday, even those psychotic people you didn't like so much will feel empty for awhile (I mean who else will the leeches attack?)

P.S. -- I hate Alaska, just saying.

The Right-Hand Corner

The small things. The big things. Important things. Insignificant details.

They all matter.
Some more than others....but without each of  them the picture would be incomplete.

Some people prefer to look at the bigger picture, others prefer to notice the small right-hand corner of the picture (you know what I mean).

Then there are those who like a little of both. They like to focus on that little right hand corner, so that when they finally decide to step back and see the entire thing, each and every inch is exactly how they want it to be.

Those little details are pretty important in every aspect of life:

That first look you get from your crush
Your first kiss
When your friend genuinely remembers your birthday (without having to check facebook)
When that same friend stays up until midnight to wish you happy birthday
When a stranger compliments the blouse you're wearing, they have nothing to gain from you, but are just nice
When your boyfriend leaves a rose in your locker for your 'monthaversary' or just 'cause

They may seem like the smallest thing at the time, but they're exactly what you're going to remember in a few years. Even the bad things that happen to you will seem unimportant. For every bad hair day, break-up or lost championship game you have over 100 amazing things to appreciate.

Pay attention to what happens around you and what people say to you.
You never know when you might miss something important, and once you do, you may not get that opportunity again.

Leeches

They bite and they suck your blood. 
Okay, she doesn't suck blood. But she might as well, cause she's sucking the life out of me. 

Back-stabbing, two-faced, emotionally draining and just plain annoying. 
Why do they even exist? They serve no greater purpose in life and are just pests. 

Also, leeches are hermaphrodites. Which is both a fun fact and explains the constant confusion between the choice of partner. 

As if biting and taking your blood wasn't enough, some also actually eat other invertebrates that are smaller than them, swallowing them whole. They think they're bigger and better than others, that they can do whatever the hell they like and no one can stop them. They attack those who they believe to be less powerful. But once you decide that you've had enough, treat that leech the same way they treat you and just watch and see how fast they drop dead.  

They're also content feed off decomposing bodies. So, even when you think there's nothing left and it couldn't possibly get any worse-- the leech proves you wrong. 

Now, the leech may not be the villain in this story. The amount of blood they take, which usually isn't a lot, is harmless. But imagine the same leech constantly coming back for more. Little by little, feeding off you. Taking a small piece of you every time. The amount they take from you cannot be observed from the outward appearance, but it does take a toll deep within.


The leech thinks it knows everything and everyone. It believes it can never be wrong. But what it doesn't know is that it's not even close to knowing the person or the truth. You try to be straight forward with the leech? Tell it to leave you alone? But, why would the leech listen? I mean, it apparently knows you better than you know yourself. It thinks you want --no-- need it. But the truth is, your life would be so much better without this leech. Without its constant pestering, questioning and feeding off you.

No one needs a leech in their life. So, you all know how to get a leech off you.

Burn that sucker. Make it squirm. 

What ifs and Whys

There are those who wonder, question and try to find answers.

Then there are those who could care less and don't even acknowledge a problem.

You would think the second type of people have a much easier, stress-free life and must be happier. And yes-- you may be right. They may have never even thought that there was something they didn't know or should know.

But, the second type of people are also the ones left with the 'what ifs' and 'whys' that will bother them later on.

When a girl gets dumped or rejected by a guy, she thinks there's something wrong with her. She think she's not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough and will try to find a flaw in everything she does and how she looks. She feels that she must have done something wrong to make the guy not want to be with her.

When a guy gets rejected he thinks there's something wrong with the girl who  rejected him. He assumes she's the "bitch" who just wants to date "an asshole" or "bad boy". Never for one second does he think that he may have done something wrong, or said something to hurt her. He doesn't reflect on himself and automatically goes and assumes it was her fault.

So boys, before you go and pull something stupid like that, think about what you did.

Sure, maybe she wasn't the right girl and you were perfectly nice to her. In that case, you deserve to know why she broke up with you. She owes you an explanation.
You really liked this girl, and felt like everything was perfect and then BAM. I understand that you may need some time, and that's fine. But a time will come when you're comfortable enough to ask her, and you should do exactly that.

If you did do something, you should apologize; because that girl will keep thinking about it everyday, all the time, trying to figure out why she wasn't good enough for you.

The Crazy Obsessive Freak

*Read the following assuming you're not a crazy obsessive freak*

As far as you're concerned, he's yours. He may not know it himself, but it's true.

Everything about him is perfect to you. But then again, love is blind.

The way his hair is imperfect, his clothes ( which look effortlessly put together, but still sexy), his voice, smile, laugh. You notice it all. Every single thing.

The only fault is that you're not with him. Oh, and one more thing. She is.

She's just about the worst thing that could have happened to you
Forget Elizabeth Taylor, this girl should have played the shrew
Her voice, makes you want to shoot the nearest passerby
If she left, you would be the first to say goodbye

Now, she may not be a horrible person
But if she doesn't get the hell out of your way, let's just say she'll get a 'condition' that'll only worsen
This is your chance to get creative! A 'fall' down the stairs, 'tripping' through the 3rd floor window
Not to call people names, but even your friends agreed, she's a hoe

Just a small poem to help him realize
If he doesn't choose you, someone in this story dies
You're not a crazy obsessive freak
You just have many personalities, like Mystique

The Art of Texting - A Guide

'Why does there need to be a "guide" for texting?', you ask.

It's there to make your life less complicated and save you from those awkward pauses that occur when you're talking on the phone.

Texting gives you time to think, edit and then reply. It saves you from sounding like an idiot (depending on how well your 'think' and 'edit' steps went of course -- which is where this guide comes in).

Now, when texting family (mom, dad, brother, sister) it really doesn't matter if you make a horrible typo or send something your weren't supposed to ( this all depends on how close you are with your fam, so don't be sending nasty pictures, please.)

Girls, when texting your best friend you two can say anything, and usually speak in fragments or HUGE paragraphs. When texting your guy friend....don't. They hate typing because they're lazy. And whatever you type and send will be completely ignored (if there is an option to skype, just do that). When that option is not available, they're usually quite good with replying.

Boys, when texting your "bro"....oh wait, you guys don't (unless talking about a party with food and hot girls).

Now the important part:

When talking to your crush. You should be used to how that person "writes" and "sounds" when they're in a normal mood, so it'll be easy to notice any chances.

"Okayyyyy", "Okaay/Okayy", "Okay/Kay", "Ok", "Ok.", "K", "K."
( In descending order from 'super happy' to 'get your life together, you messed up bad')

"LMFAOOOO", "LMAO", "lmao/LOL", "Lol", "lawl", "lel/ llo" (typos), "haha/hehe", "Ok lol"
(In descending order from "DAMN you were funny" to "stop talking, i hate you and you will never be funny")

If emoticons are usually used a lot and suddenly stop, something is wrong.
If emoticons are usually never used and suddenly start, they either love you now or are highly drunk (good luck figuring out which one).

If the crush sends you an "Okay", or a "Sure" or any other lame one word answer, then don't reply. You can't reply, and if you send anything to try to keep the conversation going, it'll make it really obvious you like them (unless that's what you're going for, then go for it).
If they want to keep talking to you, they'll say something else.

Last point, please edit (especially if you have autocorrect), you wouldn't want to be the sad sad person who accidently sent his crush "I'm going to take a whore" or "Penis Butter", instead of "I'm going to take a shower" and "Peanut Butter", right?
No one would want to be that guy.

Happy Texting xD

Skittles and Things

Thought I should put in an "image" (a completely original idea of course)

Anyone else like skittles? But not those purple ones. "Grape flavoured"....yeah right. More like "Death Flavoured".  But the red and orange ones are pretty awesome.

These small likes and dislikes are what make you unique. These are those little conversation starters. Okay, maybe "skittles" are not the best way to introduce yourself, but you get the idea. 

But how about the smell outside after it rains?

Perfect Silence?

Playing Rock-Paper-Scissors to solve serious life problems?

Getting that last bit of toothpaste out of the tube?

Being the first person in the lane to go at a green light?

Popping Bubble Wrap? 

Jumping into the pool on a hot summer day?

Getting that multiple choice question right, even though you just picked "C" because "it's always the right answer" ?

Eating McDonald's soft serve ice cream with french fries?

Standing outside in the rain?

These simple little habits are what you remember when you're older. What you share with people when they ask what you did today. 

These are the memories you will have forever.

So don't forget to acknowledge them once in awhile, because --even if it's just for a second-- you'll smile. 

Venom

It spreads to everyone.
They all seem so addicted.

And though you may not want to admit it, you're addicted at times too.

But it's just so difficult to stay away from it all. It seems like it's everywhere. Even if you try to get away from it, it seems to come to you.

Rumours. Lies. Altered Stories. Assumptions. Stereotypes. 

We are all guilty of a few, or even, all of the above. 

This doesn't mean you're a bad person or want to maliciously ruin lives. But these things have just become part of our society. We have grown up with them and as awful as it sounds, we've become used to them.

Whether you're the one who starts the rumour, helps to spread it or just happens to overhear it, you've now become part of the situation.

But you can still choose what you do with this information. 

If you started the rumour, have the decency to apologize, don't be a coward. 

If you purposefully went and told 7 people who you knew would tell everyone, then you're no better than the person who started the rumour. But there is a difference between telling someone in order to receive advice or just so you feel better. It can be emotionally draining when people tell you all their problems, or something that happened, and it's fair for you to have an outlet. Make sure it's someone who you can trust.

No one is perfect. You have been part of this problem in the past, and may have to deal with it again in the future. But once you make the decision to act appropriately, it will make a difference.